Storytelling and traveling tangles

In my last post, I mentioned my recent obsession with the beach and trying to recreate the beaches of my life. Once I let go of any plan, the tangles and memories started flowing out of my pen, and I found myself back among waves, shells and beach umbrellas.

This morning, I grabbed my pen to practice the tangles for today's Zoom class: 'Brella, Oybay, Dragonair and 1-2-3 O'Leary. I already had my demo tile, so I just wanted to practice the tangles. Since they are all border tangles, I began with a Dragonair border. I continued with 1-2-3 O'Leary, Surf's Up, Oybay and finished with a piece of Brella. I had chosen a tan tile, just to do something different. But I was enjoying the tangles so much I forgot to use my brown pen, only black. Hmm. I went for the colored pencils. And while I was coloring, I remembered more details about Biarritz, my favorite beach. The turquoise water that became deep green. The white sails bobbing along during regattas. The golden sand and pebble beaches. (Not so many shells here, but shell pieces.) And those beautiful striped cabanas. When I finished, I realized that the colors I had used brought back more memories, of my favorite building in Biarritz, the Casino. I could see the vivid colors of the rugs and tapestries and arm chairs of this amazing Art Deco interior, with its floor to ceiling windows overlooking the Atlantic and the Grande Plage.

Maybe not museum worthy, maybe not the "best" I've ever draw, this tile will always manage to take me back to a favorite place and time, with a beach umbrella to lounge under.

I invite you to explore traveling with your tangles. If you're on a trip, take time to really see the colors, shapes and patterns around you and make some notes. (Photographs, which we take so easily and then often forget, don't hold the same power, at least for me, as drawing your  own images.) If you're not traveling, but staying home, revisit a special trip through drawing. What images, colors, feelings emerge as you close your eyes and go back in time? Is there a story you want to tell?

Never, ever, ever give up

I have begun following Mindful Art Studio's Friday Art Parties, on Facebook. Amy, the instructor, is an art therapist and her free hour-long classes with lots of breathing exercises and mindful stroke-making are always a delightful way to end the week. She has us come to class with small rectangles of watercolor paper, sometimes only 2 inches wide, and we may use several of these during the hour. "When you're done, put it aside and start another one." No looking back. Always moving forward and making more marks. For those who hear the inner critic saying, "That's ugly", she says, "Are you doing this to sell it to a museum or to make some art and have fun?" One day she quipped, "You gotta make a lot of junk before you start making something pleasing."

That message kept coming back to me this week. My staycation has my mind wandering to the beaches of my life, and I've been trying to re-create them in my tangles. I want to draw shells, seaweed, waves, sea oats, sail boats, regattas, beach umbrellas, starfish, sooooo badly! (I've often tangled in my travel notes over the years, with visual souvenirs of where I've been. Nothing museum worthy, of course! Just fun, inside jokes and reminders that only I understand.) All week, I kept struggling, looking through hundreds of tangles, trying to find a composition, until finally I realized that I wasn't practicing the Zentangle Method. I was trying to represent my visual memories. And I was making a lot of junk!!!

I picked up a watercolor wash that I had done after one of the Art Parties. Once I started stroking the ink on the page, things changed. My inner critic shut up. I started to see beauty and get excited about where my pen was taking me! And before I knew it, it had taken me to the beach! The next morning, I picked up my pen, too sleepy to have a "plan" for it, and off we went! As I drew, a story developed about a day at the beach...

Featuring Konk, Funf and Trigue

Featuring Konk, 'Brella, Clamz, Funf and Surf'sUp

Don't be afraid to make junk. But don't be afraid to let your pen lead the way. And "Bon voyage".

Gratitude, or Happy Dependance Day!

Fireworks boomed all around us. Beginning yesterday afternoon long into the night. Perplexed and a little miffed, I wondered what people were celebrating in these times of pestilence and needless loss. My mind--that ever critical Virgo mind--set about trying to understand this place that feels so foreign to me now. Where did compassion, overcoming obstacles together, solidarity and doing the right thing go?
Maybe you feel this way. Maybe not. I'm not here to proselytize. This is a blog about my journey of joy through the practice of the Zentangle Method. And although it might feel good to get some of my opinions and questions off my chest, there are other places for that.
But that yearning for better times persists on this Independance Day, and I think that I can, through my practice, find some clarity and direction.
What is the first step of the Zentangle Method?
Gratitude and appreciation.
And the last step?
Appreciation.
These are the alpha and omega. I try to be grateful in all things, at all times. For physical beauty in nature. For the tools I use in my daily life. For the love of my family and friends. For my journey thus far.
Recently, as I sit down to draw, I've started to take a moment to be mindful and grateful for the tools I use--pen, pencil, tortillon, paper--and for the people who brought them to my table. This is an extension of expressing gratitude before you eat. I turn my heart to all those who brought my food, even my artistic nourishment, to my table. And then I think of their families and offer a wish for them to have food and nourishment on their tables, and love in their hearts.
We are so dependent on others, in so many ways. Self-sufficiency, which can be noble in itself, can only go so far. Especially now, when we depend on others for our physical health and protection. I want to be grateful for this newfound DEPENDANCE on others. I hereby declare DEPENDANCE DAY, and it is every day, to celebrate our connection. And I invite you, in your Zentangle practice, to celebrate with me.

 

Birthday card for my dear sister, Renni

PS: Independance or independence? Looks like both are accepted. I've deliberately chosen "-dance", in the hope that my gratitude will leap and fly like Baryshnikov.

Good morning, Universe!

I'm glad to see you, and hope that you and yours are well and safe!

Zentangle has given me another "tool in my toolbox" that I wanted to share with you. I have been finding it really hard to focus in this new reality of ours. (In my last post, I mentioned having this problem when I had shingles, and how Zentangle helped get me through it.) I think it's not uncommon right now, so I thought I'd share something that has enabled me to focus a little better.

I call it the "Good Morning, Universe Method".  I like to tangle in the morning in a small journal, while I'm having breakfast.  Some days, the questions that are usually opportunities become obstacles. String or no string? Which tangles? That's when I let the Universe--or Providence, Kismet, Fate, Destiny, what have you--take over! In the beginning, I used tanglelist.com for my tangles and, after choosing a number from 1-250, tanglepatterns.com for my strings. Then, I wanted to explore Reticula and Fragments, from Rick and Maria's Zentangle Primer, Volume 1. Using the randomwordgenerator.com, I chose one or several numbers and letters that would work together for square, triangular or round fragments and reticula. (See Tanglelist.com for an exhaustive list of the fragments and reticula if you don't have the book.) Armed with the elements for my composition, I start to   d  r  a  w.    Slowly, deliberately, I make one line after another, focusing on my breath and the position of my paper and pen. I move only the paper, with my non-dominant hand, so that I can stay comfortable. Inhale, exhale, turn, repeat. This simple process, the essence of the Zentangle Method, has the power to calm my mind and spirit and body. I let go, and when I see that my drawing is complete, I notice that only 20-30 minutes have passed. Sometimes, I get a surprise when I see the meta-patterns emerge. This is liberating and uplifting, and confirms that what I envision is often limited and not representative of all that is possible. I am ready to move on and start my day, in the awareness that "anything is possible, one stroke at a time."

Now I am starting to teach a free Zoom class with this focus. (Email me if you're interested.) Our focus will be mindfulness, breathing, making deliberate, repetitive strokes. And I'm hoping that others can see that, in these uncertain times, we can still let go, albeit for an hour, and trust the Universe.

PS: If you would like to further explore randomly developed tangles, check out Eni Oken's free Art Raffle app. It's quite a bit more complex than the Reticula and Fragments formula, but lots of fun.

Persist, or what I learned from my shingles

When I wrote my last post, on January 12, I thought to myself, "Next week will be my 250th post!!! I'll put together a knock-out piece to celebrate!" In the week that followed, I got shingles, or le zona in French. Shingles is a virus caused by the chickenpox virus. If you had chickenpox as a child, you still carry the virus in your blood, and when you get older, or go through an especially stressful period, you may get shingles, which affects your nerve endings and causes a rash, flu-like symptoms, abdominal pain, fever and chills, among other lovely things. Every one who gets shingles seems to have a different story as to where the rash popped up, what symptoms they felt and how long it lasted. But everyone agrees: it is best to avoid it.
There is a vaccine now that is readily available. I had not had the vaccine, because I thought you needed to be 65. You don't.
So, after being away from my blog for almost two months, what do I have to share with you today?

It's definitely not a knock-out piece with my latest artwork. My energy levels, ability to focus and draw, and vision made it hard to tangle for weeks. When I first tried to go through the 8 steps of the Zentangle Method, I realized that, in step 1, I was in so much pain that my breathing was shallow. I just did breathing that day. 

"B   r   e   a   t   h   e."

Then I felt grateful, for the method, for time to slow down, for an opportunity to learn.

"There are no mistakes. Just opportunities."

Sometimes, I just took a pen and practiced the basic I, C, S and O strokes, slowly and deliberately. What if I thickened them? curved them to the left? to the right? wiggled them? made them HUGE? or tiny?

"Anything is possible, one stroke at a time."

Once I felt a little better, I faced a new problem. No inspiration. Everything seemed like a struggle. Who wants to dance in a pool of molasses? So I turned to the Zentangle community on the Mosaic app. I found pieces that I really liked and tried to do one element from a tile. Sometimes I learned a new pattern.

Sometimes I revisited a string I had used in the past.

I actually looked at my pins on Pinterest, too. (I always pin things and rarely go back to see what I have!) I found some tiles by Jo in New Zealand that had always intrigued me, so I tried a similar string with 2 tangles.

I decided to investigate tangling on metal foil, and fell into a rabbit hole! Eni Oken's "Metal Tangles" lesson helped me to safely find my way out!

"Discover."

Once I could go out again, I decided to teach my library class, which had been canceled due to my illness. I knew I wasn't up to driving and setting up the tables and chairs, so I asked my dear Lar if he would take me. He gave up his day off to do so. The love I felt and joy of seeing my students did as much to help the healing as weeks of medication! (Although I'm grateful for the expert advice and treatment I received from my dear doctor!) And I would be remiss if I didn't mention all the smiles and chuckles my students brought to my life through emails and texts of support prior to this reunion.

"Gratitude and Appreciation."

A few days ago, I finished my treatment. I have ventured out alone and taught another class. Although I'm still not 100%, I'm back from 25% to probably 88%! I still need to exercise some patience and compassion with myself. I'm a work in progress, like those tiles that we add to after we think we finished them! 

"Life is not always black and white. There are many shades of gray."

In closing, I am surprised and pleased that this post--my 250th!-- is now written and ready to post. When I started, I had no plan, just time to sit and reflect and the desire to share my experience of Zentangle helping me through my rough spot. It's the feeling we have in step 8, when we appreciate and enjoy what has come out of our pen. If you're in a rough spot, I hope that you, too, can find some solace and relief in your Zentangle practice. Just pick up your pencil or pen and breathe. The rest will follow in good time.

Project Pack 07

Have you seen the latest project from Zentangle HQ? Project Pack 07, with its focus on gray paper with blue and gold inks and blue chalk pastel was released about a month ago. As always, the project videos are available to all for free, and you are welcome to play along with whatever materials you have. I had bought some gray card stock and made a journal using mid-tint papers for the project lessons. Slowly but surely, I've been working my way through the 12 days. I've enjoyed every minute! Here's what I have so far.

Copper metallic ink with purple pastel chalk

Gold metallic ink with blue and white pastel chalk

Gold metallic ink with blue and white pastel chalk

Notice the two blue inks. One is a blue back PN (plastic nib) pen and the other

is a blue Micron. These are gorgeous on gray.

Gold metallic ink with brown Micron on tan paper

Gold metallic ink with blue watercolor on gray

Gold metallic ink with blue and white pastel chalk

Purple PN with white and violet chalk on gray

Somewhat surprised at how I like the gray paper, I still have some exploring to do. I was pleased with the purple ink, as well as the copper. I'm having some trouble blending the pastel chalks on the card stock. It's probably easier on the gray tiles from Zentangle, which look like they have a soft, fibrous feel that really takes well to the chalk.

Have you tried the new paper? What do you think?

Happy New Year! Meet Khala, my new friend...

What do you do when you feel dispersed?
This is something that is not normal for me. I usually focus well, and easily follow the "one stroke at a time" concept of the Zentangle Method. In a recent conversation with my friend Connie, who has known me for about 20 years, I mentioned that I was finding it extremely hard to focus on my artwork. "That's not like you," she replied. We discussed possible explanations, like the holidays,  my age, my husband's changing work schedule, but never really found an answer. To make things worse, one of the items cluttering up my drawing table was a typography piece I had begun, intending to tangle it.

Every day, it seemed to taunt me! I even found it impossible to follow along with the new Project Pack 07 videos.
Then, last week, I met a new tangle, Khala, by Zen Linea on Facebook.

I'm not a huge fan of Celtic knots, but for some reason this one was calling my name! Alas, I worked for several days on it without success. My frustration and even fear that I was somehow losing my ability to tangle mounted. Nevertheless, I persisted in my efforts to befriend this tangle. Once I finally "understood" it, I couldn't get enough!!!(And to be perfectly honest, I still do it in pencil first!) I mounted the first successful attempt on a black Zendala tile and added some typography. It now hangs over my drawing table.

While I'm still a bit "off" in the focus area, I feel that things are getting back to normal. In future posts, I hope to share some of my recent distractions, especially architectural details re-imagined with tangles, my 2020 tile, working with gray and blues, red backgrounds, and even wood burning!

In the meantime, I leave you with my best wishes for you and yours, for a focused, productive and meaningful new year!